To my foodie friends.

A testiment of a struggling fat girl. My love for food has gotten me to this point, and now I'm trying to get out. I wasn't always fat, chubby, or fluffy. I was never the skinny girl either. I just want to be normal again. I know what you are thinking "What is normal?" For me it's all about the way I look, trust me I'm not vain for goodness sakes look at me. I want everyone else to see ME and not how big I am.

After a year of trying to get pregnant and not being successful has sent me over the food edge. I've lost control & now I'm trying to take it back!






Monday, August 18, 2014

Day 1: I did my best.... The day went well until about 5pm.  Having to be at work by 5am means I eat lunch at 9am.  I kicked butt during the day then when I got home it sort of fell apart.  I did force myself to go for a 30 min. walk and 30 jumping jacks so we'll see if that makes up for my starving pickings during the evening.  I guess I'll find out on the scale in the morning.  Here all day I talk about motivating change but I can't seem to do it for myself.  I know a couple friends that have had different surgeries to lose weight, and good for them, I just don't want to have to go to that extreme.  If I had some support and not the constant nagging I get from my mother & father.  But I guess what type of support am I expecting really.